It’s no secret that I want another baby. I don’t know where that desire came from. I convinced myself 9 years ago, at the age of 22 that if I didn’t have another baby by the time I was 27 that I wouldn’t have any more. In January of that year, when I turned 27, I upped the anti to 28. However, that only left me 3 months to find a man, marry him, and get pregnant, and I’m good… but I’m not stupid.

Looking back, the age of 28 was not a good time to have a baby. Neither was 27. Even 22 and 20 weren’t, but I did, and look at what I have now.

Two healthy, beautiful children in both the male and female variety.

I had put the thought of another baby out of my head until I turned 30. It’s like I celebrated a birthday at a surprise Tasteful Treasures party surrounded by tons of sex toys and immediately I wanted a baby.

It’s never gone away.

A few months later, I discovered the mom blogging community and all of a sudden I was surrounded by women having babies, parenting, nuturing, and doing all these things that at 20 and 22, I was too dumb to know about, let alone do.

And now? The thoughts of carrying a child, nursing a child and witnessing all the first sometimes consumes me.

And please don’t put me near a baby. I go nuts. Because as I mentioned when I met Heather, I want to steal them… although I never would. I have no room in this house for another baby. Hence needing the husband, not only for his sperm, but for a second income for a slightly bigger house that would accommodate at least 4 children.

But, with all of those things comes alot of other things… like, oh, I don’t know… not sleeping through the night, having to feed the child myself, teething, diapers and diaper rash.

If you are fortunate to have children and never really had to deal with diaper rash, I want to be you. Samara was forever with the rash and it seemed like nothing I could do could change that, dimish it, or keep it under control.

I’m also someone who didn’t know that you could take a baby to the doctor for uncontrollable diaper rash. I assumed that it was something that I was doing wrong and that I was a horrible mother.

And through the mommy blogging community, I’ve learned of lots of things that I want when the new baby comes. Like slings? Yes, I think it would be so cool to wear my baby. And cloth diapering? This lazy woman actually WANTS to try that.

And then I learned about Vusion for diaper rashes. No, I didn’t try it.. for two reasons… (a) I don’t have a baby and (b) it’s by prescription only and I’m pretty sure Dr. Payne would look at me strange if I came in and asked him for a scrip for diaper rash cream when my youngest child is 9.

But he’s a pediatrician, so maybe it wouldn’t be the strangest request that he’s gotten.

I wish the internet was around when I had my children. A new mommy in today’s age has so much more information. They have a website that outline the symptoms and how to treat and manage it as well as a symptom checklist. I would’ve been to the doc in a heartbeat had I been able to read any of this.

And, yes, the internet was there and I was online but it was dial-up? By the time I would’ve found what I was looking for, she would’ve been 9.

And so, I’ve bookmarked this site as well. Because if I do have another baby, I’m going to hope that if he or she has the same problem that Sam did that the $25 rebate offer is still available. Because, all the other cool things that I want for my new baby are going to cost alot of money.

Thanks Mom Central for letting me know about this…I’ll make sure you get a birth announcement…

Until next time…

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